motivation for life

I AM going to get back into my jeans.

I’m gonna do it. I will be able to wear more than one pair of my pants. I will be able to rock my cute shirts that snug up on the hips. I will have more energy. I will believe it when my husband tells me I am beautiful. Who’s with me? I got so much wonderful feedback here and on facebook and I am so thankful for all your awesome ideas. You seriously are amazing. So you ready to hear my plan?

My wonderful mother-in-law has told me numerous times that you can do anything for a little while. And every time this proves to be true. So I am going to go one day at a time, one week at a time, until I get to where I long to be.

For starters- I will finally break out my Jillian Michaels’ DVD on how to lose 10 pounds in 20 days, or something like that. And, considering my office has a gym (thank you, Nike!), I might as well use it!
Then- I will wake up early enough to have a quite time and a real breakfast. Maybe even have enough time to do my makeup at home instead of in my work’s locker room? Lofty goal, I know!
Thirdly- Keep myself motivated and moving at home. My T.V. shows will be there when I get back.

And finally, I have found a legit, healthy detox plan. See here to see how I’ll be eating this week. At the bottom of the page you will find meals for days 1-7 individualy. It will be hard for me. But its time I kick it into high gear and get back to my fighting weight! There's even a shopping list to take to the grocery store with you!

Anyone want to join in and let me know how their week goes with this cool menu? It actually looks pretty good! And who knows, maybe I’ll be able to fit into my favorite jeans for the fantastic bachelorette party Olivia and I are throwing Friday.

a cry for help

Hi all. I’m here for a plea for help. Remember that one post I wrote about the hilarity (sarcasm, of course) of gaining all this weight? Welp, I went to the dr. again and by some awful turn of events I have gained even more weight. Its just lovely. So I am here asking you- what do I do?! What works for you?! Paul and I can try for a baby next month and I want to be in better shape. I understand bodies change- but I need to figure out something that works for me to get myself back. I am ready to feel like myself again, and this weight gain is having the opposite effect. Help?

things i would like to do asap

i wish i lived in a craft store most days of my life. today specifically.

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wednesday lovin': my someday

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have no envy and no fear

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I don't like feeling jealous of people. It's an unflattering and wasted emotion. However, tonight I simply cannot help it. Please believe me when I say that I have tried. I do my best to smile and not show my envy or neediness to those around me. But right now- I feel like I am sucking at it. People keep saying I am being strong. But I cannot see an ounce of strength in me. All I see is a girl that still cries in the shower so she can't be heard. Reads books to escape reality a bit. Puts on an angry face because its easier than a sad one. And yet- it doesn't help whatsoever. I still find myself sad when I come home from a night with my sweet friends and their adorable babies. Or putting my niece to sleep knowing that my sister has a bond with her that she and I will never have. And I am okay with that- don't get me wrong. I just feel like I am missing out on something. Like there is a piece of me that feels so empty and I am just not sure what to fill it with. I have tried the superficial things that pump up your mood for a second- new clothes, a sappy chick flick, happy hour with a friend. But then I come home and realize I am missing something. I love my husband more than anything, and sometimes I wonder if he feels it too. Like we had this thing that made us whole..and now that its gone we are not sure how to put it back together again. Its not a fun feeling. Its scary and unnerving. I don't like not being able to control my tears. It makes me feel weak and childish. But lately, I almost feel like I don't have a choice. As if this is my life now, and it will never change. You know when you are sick and you feel like you'll never feel better? Thats my fear- I'll never feel whole again. Never have a day go by where I don't miss someone. Never look at a pregnant woman and feel tears well up. Never see a mother with her babies and have to fight back the words "that will never be me" from my mind. Its a daily battle, my friends. And let me tell you- Its one that I wish was over.

i heart etsy

So excited for my wonderful cousin, Katie, and her new Etsy adventure!! She just did the CUTEST invitations for a fun, flirty, lingerie shower Olivia and I are throwing in a few weeks (see below). Be sure to check out Katie's Etsy shop! Cute invitations make a great reason to throw a party!

Home Sweet Home

Here are just a few projects we have done at home this week.

Nothing crazy- but enjoy.